"I dont mind living in a man's world as long as I can be a woman in it." ~Marilyn Monroe

"I don't mind living in a man's body as long as I can be a woman in it." ~VinVin Jacla

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Sunday, January 17, 2016

The "right" guy (My future boyfriend)

I dunno actually where to start. I haven't blogged like this...like this personal....for like years. I haven't opened up about my "heart" to anyone for quite some time now, especially here on my blog, ever since I allowed someone to break it years ago.

Well, not just someone. There were actually three of them. LOLZ!

I'll be turning 29 this year. Would you believe it? I can't believe it has been that long already. I started blogging when I was still in college...when I was around 17 or 18 years old. And now, more than a decade later, I'm still here. Doing what I really love the most. And, yes, I've also been single for almost 3 decades now. Imagine that! CHOZ!

When I was younger, I thought that everything about adult life was nothing but a bliss. Little did I know that it was gonna be this hard. I've had dreams. I've had goals. I've had aspirations. I wanted to do lots of things. I wanted to achieve a number of things, too. And, I guess, quite more obviously, I wanted to meet the love of my life.

I wanted to have a boyfriend. Wanted.

I mean...who doesn't? Right?

But, as time went by, I slowly realized that it wasn't gonna be that easy. Life wasn't that easy after all. I was a fool to believe that life was fair. That life was easy. That life was just life. I should've known that "living" is altogether a different concept after all. And that it's not simple.

You stumble. You get disappointed. You get sad. You get depressed. You lose faith on other people. You get broken....

I'll probably talk about my frustrations about my career and professional life some other time. But, believe me, I've actually learned to cope up with it thanks to Oprah. She once said that we can actually have everything, but just not all at once. I always keep that in mind.

I just wanna concentrate on the "love" aspect for now. Believe me. I've already tried developing crushes on  (and sometimes dated with) a cute/gorgeous guy, a not so gorgeous guy, a discreet gay guy, an older guy, a somewhat younger guy, guys from school, guys in the office, guys with dadbods, etc. etc. etc. None of them just worked out. I dunno why. LOLZ!

My friends tell me that the reason why I'm still single is because I have high standards when it comes to guys. I'm telling you. I don't. The guy that I like right now has a dadbod, has pimples, has grizzly hair, doesn't look hygienic, and the least goes on. But he has the most mysterious, most beautiful eyes (and eyebrows) that I've ever seen in my entire life. And he's a gentleman. And that's why I like him.

See!!! I'm no longer superficial! I used to only like models. Male models. Now...I'm learning to have a crush on normal guys. Teehee!

The problem is...he's straight and he has a girlfriend. So I'm like...uhhh....can we move on to the next guy please?

But my question now is...who's this "next" guy?

I dunno. LOLZ!

I just wanna fall in love again before I reach 30. And this time, I hope it's with the right guy. I know there really is no such thing as a "right" guy but at least there's this idea of someone that I should aim for: the "right" guy. My future boyfriend.

And to help me show you what my idea of my future boyfriend is, lemme share with you these awesome photos that I saw on Facebook describing the kinda guy whom we (girls and gays alike) should/could fall in love with.

I'm not saying that these are the some sort of standards that we should look for in a guy. Because, c'mon, it would probably take us ages before we could actually find a guy whose qualities are close enough with the ones mentioned below. That is if we're lucky enough to find one as well.

All I'm saying is...if I were to fall in love with a guy again....

I would love that guy to be someone who....

I'm really the quiet, shy type but believe me, I also enjoy talking to the phone and having face-to-face conversations. For hours.
I'd like to think that I'm funny (LOLZ!) so it's really a plus if the guy is funny, too. I can listen to his jokes all day, all night. And laugh with him all day, all night.
Don't get me wrong. I know how to protect myself. But isn't it sweet to be with a guy who promises to protect you and care for you when you're with him? And that he actually keeps such promises? Teehee!
First thing in the morning, you just woke up, and then you checked your phone, and then you read a sweet greeting message from him. Awww....
I can do this with him all day. ALL DAY. My name is VinVin and I like warm hugs.
I've been hurt before. A number of times. I don't wanna relive those moments again. Ever.
And not just my money. Oh, please. I'm not rich. So stop asking for this and that. LOLZ!
I seldom get mad so this should be easy. But, yeah, interestingly whenever I'm in a bad mood and then I see the face of my crush...I lighten up.
I'll cherish every moment. I promise. 
A guy who's not ashamed of me and who's not embarrassed to be with me in public.
A guy's "manly scent" is actually very sexy. Don't you agree?
I'd like to be called "cupcake" or "buttercup" or "pikachu" or "moja moja" even just once. LOLZ!
Sa tamang panahon, VinVin. Sa tamang panahon. And I hope it's gonna be this year! Oh, please!!! Like when you meet him and you get to interact with him and know more about him, you'll just slowly realize that, hey, this is the guy that I've been waiting for all my life.
Because he loves me and he thinks that I'm beautiful just the way I am. *play Bruno Mars' song here*
Someone who won't judge me and will accept me for who I really am.
A guy who'll be wiling to pray at the church with me. Because for me, this guy will be more than just a blessing. He'll be....

And I think I already have an idea who that "right" guy is.


Jejejejejejeje! Pagbigyan! Nangangarap lang! LOLZ!

Thank you in advance, Lord. I love you.



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Who is that "gay" I see staring straight back at me...?

Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?

When will my reflection show...who I am inside?